Framed? Insulted? Blamed?!

I dunno what's wrong with everyone now. Yeah, they hate me I wouldn't care much. At least I didn't do the reports. And they just F**K me like bitches. I don't understand a person who loves God can also do something that shameful. But seriously he earned a credit on helping out friends at least. We could excuse him. Though he helps the wrong way, but he stood for what he did. The others, well, I don't even have the power to judge. I mean :

WHO AM I TO JUDGE THEM?

Fair enough, but why pull me in? Why shove me down the water as if I did it to you guys. I judge watch and see. Is it wrong? I did shut up. I know I maybe chicken but there's a point that I didn't have to do anything at all. At least it has proven that after those "acts" your marks aren't higher or intimidating. I just don't understand why am I insulted by some people? Shutting up is also wrong? Then what do you want me to do? I don't usually use F-bombs but this is serious. F**k'in me is not a solution. But I don't have the right to judge. But do you guys have it?!

Whatever done is doned. Like Eddryll said. Seriously speaking, he was a little pissed when he saw the "acts" and he did say ripping the heads off those who are in the "act" if they get better than him. Pity him you guys. Have some heart of conscience please you guys. You guys aren't blunt. I see the way you play games, and it isn't silly. You guys are potential winners. But why don't choose a better way.

To be honest, you guys wouldn't drop to any class!

"AG" is good at chemistry, at least he proved it in class. "CME" is good at
playing games. I will actually lose him if I play games with him. I lost to him
on Scramble when I played his iPod. XD "StL" is smatter than I
am. He won me in the mid-year exam and everyone knows it. So why do
you guys think you would get down.


So I just don't understand why you guys
wanna blame me for this. You guys are actually fine if you use the correct way
to do things. But I don't judge cause I had already been judged. Fine, that's
all I have to say. There will be lots of comments again I assume. You guys
already hate me to the tops and I have nothing to say. I admit,

I have VERY FEW TRUE FRIENDS... Shoot me if you want.

P.S.
Including those who knew me well. I know deeply in your heart there is something you hate about me. Spill it all out, I need to make a change for this. If you really are my true best friend, tell me all you want to criticise and be honest.

End,
Despereaux_De_Joe

I missed my blog...

Well, it's been a long time I haven't post anything here. About the change, it's actually almost complete. So it's a new me now.

YAY!!!

I felt a little bad being on here now cause exams are near. Yeah, tomorrow is a holiday therefore I am up till now. Bad me...

Today was Eddryll's birthday. Of course that baby-faced person doesn't really look 16. XD

But he's a great guy/boy. We gave him a pencil box caused his one looks so screwed and it lacks of lots of stationaries. Maggie planned to buy that for him so that he can have his own things to use. We are happy that the prank we planned failed. He looks so hard to ignore, it makes me feel guilty on ignoring him the whole day but end up he was happy. SO ARE WE... XD

My birthday was a snap. The pre-birthday bash was fun. But the real birthday was zits. My pre-birthday bash is a steamboat-cum-BBQ party. Of course there are gourmets such as Lagsana, spaghetti, and some coleslaws made by my wonderful parents who raised me up so far. And my friends did had a good time though the party was more on eating than playing. XD

That was one of my best days of this year till now. I got a pencil box and a wallet (both from Body Glove. XD). Appreciate those great gifts from my friends.

I caught a quote about birthdays from one of my friends on Facebook. It says

" Rather than counting the birthdays you have, why not count the blessings you received... "

It's quite nice and I like it. So I planned that in my future birthdays, I should give my parents a gift rather than they giving me one cause it's they who brought me to this world. Thank them so much. ^^

To those whose birthdays are coming, HAPPY BIRTHDAY and count your blessings than counting the years you have on earth.

PEACE TO YOU ALL!

The Change... (Still in progress...) =D

Yowdy partners, I am back... But I am sick too..

"SORE THROAT, COUGHS,
LIVER PROBLEMS! "

What can I say.. But I am happy nowadays. I found out that lonliness can be overcome if you know how to see everything in a different way.. So, i try to change views... ^^

Alas, I found a ludicrous quiz... It says it will tell you what problem are you having now.. What is your MAJOR PROBLEM... And you know what? They said I am TOO FRIENDLY!

I love to have credit on that. But am I REALLY tha FRIENDLY? You tell me (please, XD). Cause I don't really know... But all I know is that I am sometimes silly.. I always trust people that CAN'T be trusted and neglect those who COULD be trusted...

"PLEASE TELL ME I AM STUPID.. XP"

What can I say... I am silly. But hope that you friends can forgive me if I never trust you guys... I will change myself. I promise..^^
But in return, I hope you all can be with me and let me have a great time with you guys before I leave... ^^
THANKS..

By,
The Joyful one who is leaving the world soon.. ^^ ( How sarcastic.. Forgive me mates... XD)

People arrive and people depart...

I dare not to say that today is a bad day. But something touched me today. Human feelings are unpredictable. They say that they are strong, they never cried or over exaggerate. But end up, there's always something that will move their hearts. Even the most evil person in this world have a weak point that can make them change...

People arrive in our lives with a brand new feeling. Some may have fear, some maybe shy. This is what happens when you just arrived to a brand new place. You will feel a little uncomfortable. Sometimes you may hid it by acting strong and stern. But sooner or later, someone will crack that shell of yours. You will find yourself crying, or smiling when you leave. Those who really loved you normally will bid farewell in a very touching way. Singing songs, giving presents, hugging, sharing the times you had, etc. I don't mean that you must do that if you love that person, but most people will do it that way.

But why don't try to think in a different perspective. What if, they send you off happily.. Leaving you with smiles of joy. They do share and hug you, but no matter what, they don't want you to have tears. They want you to remember them in a great way. Which is more likely to leave a deeper memory to you? Which way do you prefer?

Feelings and emotions are humans most special instinct. Thus, humans, homosapiens, are the most amazing creatures in the world. Feelings and emotions are also affects human to remember something. It stays there as a memory, some are permanent, some may slowly be forgotten. The strongest emotions are sadness, joy and anger. These are the emotions that leave a deep impression towards a memory. It makes you hate or love someone. So those who are very emotional tend to be broken down by emotions. But some, stand strong and their life goes on...

Most people who depart aren't hoping much from you. All they want is to see you continue to fight for the better and not bury your sad with all those emotions and memories. The world continues to spin even though you hope it would stop. That's why they don't want you to blame yourself for everything you did, and they want you to live on as they are going to. That's why, some farewells are joyful and unforgettable.. I would like a joyful farewell, but sometimes you just can't hide your emotions. Don't force yourself to make it touching, bid farewell sincerely with all your heart is what people really want. No matter what it is, just do it with all your heart.. ^^

By, The Lonely Espada...

P.S.

4 Science 1, you might hate reading this blog, but this is just what I want to say about the farewell. I know you all are sincere and you all really do touch me even though I am not from your class. Your love to the teachers is really amazing, I really admired that. But just want to say, go on guys. Like the teachers said, you all are very good, you all did your best, don't blame yourself and feel sorry for yourself. Live on successfully is what the teachers want you guys to do. My best regards to you all.. Fingers crossed.. XX

The long run of a lonely life...

"Cause you have a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around...". This keeps humming in my brain for this whole day.. I almost forgot of this ludicrous blog I created some years ago... I never remembered it till now...

Talking about a lonely life.. I remembered the song I just downloaded called Stuck In The Middle by Mika... It kinda sings out my feelings and I just absorb the lyrics as if it really is about me... When life's miserable, you may try to express it. I am stuck in the middle of the absence of true friends and soul mates... I really am... When will it be the time where I could add :" Till Now.." or "yet.." at the back of this sentence? People say we should build bonds and stronger friendships in life.. Chinese say "Having one more friend is better than having one more enemy." This is undeniable, but is it that easy to have true friends?

Have ever felt so lonely that, in school, you feel as joyful as a young kid going to a circus, but when you got home, every drops of joy have left.. Leaving you to face the twilight..? It is easy to cover up, but as time goes by, these feelings will come back and haunt you like a horror movie you watched... It keeps reminding you, throbbing you, till you really want to scream or cry... Tears dripped and voices are out but no one seems to be listening... Leona Lewis have a song called Better In Time. Yes, somethings really do get better in time, but are you sure it will go away forever? Are you sure you will never forget what you are going through?

That's all I have to say. I hope this simple blog can express my feelings. Ponder about it.. For what I say is sincere from my heart...

Written by Despereaux, The Lonely Espada AKA Joseph Lai...