The Change... (Still in progress...) =D

Yowdy partners, I am back... But I am sick too..

"SORE THROAT, COUGHS,
LIVER PROBLEMS! "

What can I say.. But I am happy nowadays. I found out that lonliness can be overcome if you know how to see everything in a different way.. So, i try to change views... ^^

Alas, I found a ludicrous quiz... It says it will tell you what problem are you having now.. What is your MAJOR PROBLEM... And you know what? They said I am TOO FRIENDLY!

I love to have credit on that. But am I REALLY tha FRIENDLY? You tell me (please, XD). Cause I don't really know... But all I know is that I am sometimes silly.. I always trust people that CAN'T be trusted and neglect those who COULD be trusted...

"PLEASE TELL ME I AM STUPID.. XP"

What can I say... I am silly. But hope that you friends can forgive me if I never trust you guys... I will change myself. I promise..^^
But in return, I hope you all can be with me and let me have a great time with you guys before I leave... ^^
THANKS..

By,
The Joyful one who is leaving the world soon.. ^^ ( How sarcastic.. Forgive me mates... XD)

People arrive and people depart...

I dare not to say that today is a bad day. But something touched me today. Human feelings are unpredictable. They say that they are strong, they never cried or over exaggerate. But end up, there's always something that will move their hearts. Even the most evil person in this world have a weak point that can make them change...

People arrive in our lives with a brand new feeling. Some may have fear, some maybe shy. This is what happens when you just arrived to a brand new place. You will feel a little uncomfortable. Sometimes you may hid it by acting strong and stern. But sooner or later, someone will crack that shell of yours. You will find yourself crying, or smiling when you leave. Those who really loved you normally will bid farewell in a very touching way. Singing songs, giving presents, hugging, sharing the times you had, etc. I don't mean that you must do that if you love that person, but most people will do it that way.

But why don't try to think in a different perspective. What if, they send you off happily.. Leaving you with smiles of joy. They do share and hug you, but no matter what, they don't want you to have tears. They want you to remember them in a great way. Which is more likely to leave a deeper memory to you? Which way do you prefer?

Feelings and emotions are humans most special instinct. Thus, humans, homosapiens, are the most amazing creatures in the world. Feelings and emotions are also affects human to remember something. It stays there as a memory, some are permanent, some may slowly be forgotten. The strongest emotions are sadness, joy and anger. These are the emotions that leave a deep impression towards a memory. It makes you hate or love someone. So those who are very emotional tend to be broken down by emotions. But some, stand strong and their life goes on...

Most people who depart aren't hoping much from you. All they want is to see you continue to fight for the better and not bury your sad with all those emotions and memories. The world continues to spin even though you hope it would stop. That's why they don't want you to blame yourself for everything you did, and they want you to live on as they are going to. That's why, some farewells are joyful and unforgettable.. I would like a joyful farewell, but sometimes you just can't hide your emotions. Don't force yourself to make it touching, bid farewell sincerely with all your heart is what people really want. No matter what it is, just do it with all your heart.. ^^

By, The Lonely Espada...

P.S.

4 Science 1, you might hate reading this blog, but this is just what I want to say about the farewell. I know you all are sincere and you all really do touch me even though I am not from your class. Your love to the teachers is really amazing, I really admired that. But just want to say, go on guys. Like the teachers said, you all are very good, you all did your best, don't blame yourself and feel sorry for yourself. Live on successfully is what the teachers want you guys to do. My best regards to you all.. Fingers crossed.. XX

The long run of a lonely life...

"Cause you have a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around...". This keeps humming in my brain for this whole day.. I almost forgot of this ludicrous blog I created some years ago... I never remembered it till now...

Talking about a lonely life.. I remembered the song I just downloaded called Stuck In The Middle by Mika... It kinda sings out my feelings and I just absorb the lyrics as if it really is about me... When life's miserable, you may try to express it. I am stuck in the middle of the absence of true friends and soul mates... I really am... When will it be the time where I could add :" Till Now.." or "yet.." at the back of this sentence? People say we should build bonds and stronger friendships in life.. Chinese say "Having one more friend is better than having one more enemy." This is undeniable, but is it that easy to have true friends?

Have ever felt so lonely that, in school, you feel as joyful as a young kid going to a circus, but when you got home, every drops of joy have left.. Leaving you to face the twilight..? It is easy to cover up, but as time goes by, these feelings will come back and haunt you like a horror movie you watched... It keeps reminding you, throbbing you, till you really want to scream or cry... Tears dripped and voices are out but no one seems to be listening... Leona Lewis have a song called Better In Time. Yes, somethings really do get better in time, but are you sure it will go away forever? Are you sure you will never forget what you are going through?

That's all I have to say. I hope this simple blog can express my feelings. Ponder about it.. For what I say is sincere from my heart...

Written by Despereaux, The Lonely Espada AKA Joseph Lai...

My Simple Life Intro.. ^^

Hmm, actually I am still thinking what to write in this blog until I thought why don't I introduce myself.. XD

My name is Joseph, well maybe some of the readers here do know who I am but this is just a slight briefing about my simple life. I am 14 going on 15 years old this year ( my birthday is at the 8th of September ) . I am living in a simple yet happy family of 4. I live with both my parents, my elder sister, and just recently I have a new pet dog named Tigger ( from Winnie the Pooh ). We live in a simple double-storey semi-detached house, on a simple medium class residential area ( we have security guards and some villas around here ), on a small town called Malacca City, in a small state called Malacca, a lovely but hot country ( we are having summer the whole year cause its a tropical country ) called Malaysia, a large continent named Asia and in a extraodinary planet called EARTH.. XD

I am going to sit for my second general exam in my life called PMR ( 1st: UPSR , 2nd: PMR , 3rd: SPM , last: STPM ). It maybe a tough year but I consider myself as lazy cause I am still relaxing this year. XD But believe me, starting from this month, I won't be so free anymore so I must study hard for this exam. I am also sitting for my piano Practical Exam Grade 1 ( a little too old for that. XD ) next tuesday so its gonna be a tough July this year.

I study in a school called Gajah Berang Secondary School aka. GBSS which is situated in the town centre. I enter this school because me and my family heard that this school has lots of dedicated teachers ( I only found a few.. XD ). But as far as I know, the students in this school score very good grades for their general exams, so maybe the rumours are right, but it also maybe wrong, so its up to you to believe it or not.. I found lots of friends in this school that are very intresting and friendly ( surely there are some people that aren't totally friendly but majority its totally better than my primary school ) friends here. We can share anything in common like music, movies, games, jokes and many more. That's why I felt happier in this school rather than my primary school. So the rumours didn't really affect everyone.

I have to admit that I hate sports, but I'm not a nerd or a geek, I consider myself as a outdoorsy who loves to hang out with friends at malls and cinemas. Some people think that I am sissy cause I always hang out with girls and some thought that I am a self-image-conscious person cause sometimes I overdress for some events. I don't blame them if they say that, but what can I say, I'm a Virgo remember?! And since young till now, I always been treated better by girls rather than boys, so you can't blame me either. But nevermind, I just forgive and forget about these rumours ( I am a forgetful person, thats why I never put these grudge in my heart.. ). There's also one thing that I am always misunderstood of. Some people knew that I love to watch series like Ugly Betty and Gossip Girl, and they thought that I love to gossip. I will announce this LOUD AND CLEAR, I love to read and watch books and series about social life because I am not good in socializing. So I hope to learn something from these books and series. And I really hate gossips and hypocrites ( Some people consider me as one )
Well, hope I can still have time to compose more blogs, hope you all can know more about me and give some comments about my blog. Tata...

XOXO ExJ